Also, I’m officially, legally married. Beyond happy. Never wanted to be legally married until I met the person I was meant to marry my whole life. There’s such a difference, such a relief in knowing that I wasn’t/am not crazy for feeling afraid and unsure before. Permanence has never been so satisfying.
Starting my new life, new job, exactly where I want to be and where I’m meant to be.
I hate personal planes. I hate people who think they want to become pilots of personal planes. It’s a stupid idea, a stupid wish, and it’s annoying for everyone who has to listen to your dumb personal plane circle the sky for no fucking reason, other than you’re taking a joy ride and pumping fuel into the atmosphere. Waste of fucking life.
I feel stronger. I feel better about myself, in myself. I feel like I deserve what I have, the happiness that I have, the partner I have, this life I have. I feel appreciative and like I am appreciated. Equal. Supported and taken care of by an adult, not someone who needs taking care of or babying. Someone who respects me, totally.
My happiness is not an accident or purposeless.
I am not an object. Not a thing to be kept.
I am healing all the parts of me that have been continuously hurt for so long.
I absolutely love going out onto our patio and hearing/seeing horses a few feet away, even in the dark. Especially in the dark.
It’s pretty great when they come trotting over for pets and love, too.
"i want to write a book
about how good it feels
to undress you but
no one wants to read pages of:
and damn damn damn"
You are swearing in physical form | Lora Mathis (via lora-mathis)
Dear Kitten. Damn. <3